Willpower at Zero

Feeling totally drained.

I’ve had a few of these moments in the past, and I’m trying to record them all to see if there are any patterns.

My immediate reaction is to take a character driven stance - I’m a lazy person, I’m not the sort of person who has enough character to push through, and this continues on to a litany of self-recriminations.

But this project is about standing in opposition to that stance. I want to know WHY I’m feeling this way, and how to productively counteract it.

It could be that I’m approaching the difficult stage in my kettle bell habit. Yes I’m sore and achy, but this is more of a willpower thing rather than a physical ache. I cannot for the life of me summon the energy to do other tasks.

It also could be the fact that I’ve done an immense amount of travel to different countries this year, and around this time is when I’m about to go home, and I normally feel this way. It could be that I didn’t get much sleep last night. It could be because I haven’t eaten yet.

I take solace in the fact that despite this, I have done my 750 words and my kettle bell routine today, so all is not lost.