A New Beginning?

I feel like I’m in the same spot I was before. The first time I updated this project was HERE, when I added new behaviors without forming them into habits. I began again by occasionally taking the SRHI scale in order to focus on habituation, but stalled out again HERE. Afterwards I started to not only think in terms of habits, but started recording the SRHI every day to keep myself on task.

Every single time I’ve done this, I’ve gained more insight and more fluency at behavioral change. I’m hopeful and confident that this will occur again.

I’m at the point now where my project is stalling completely again - not because I cannot sustain a habit, but because habit formation is getting in the way of concretely and efficiently getting tangible goals.

I think the best way to get around this problem is to refocus on families of skills that bolster each other. Initially two families came to mind: 1) Eating habit and working out and 2) meditation and writing, since fear seems to be a big issue with me and writing.

The problem I run into is that I know that vortex forces will be an issue - I’ll feel like I’m neglecting one side of myself. If I focus on writing I know I’ll feel horrible not eating correctly and vice versa. The way to end feeling horrible is self confidence and faith, and ability to realize the truth of how I can’t do everything at once - but in this system that’s not a vague factor, that’s a direct result of meditation.

There seems to be no way to win, and I’m beginning to appreciate the reason why few people are masters of more than one thing.